Wednesday, July 23
I so wanted to die again last night.
Brent came over for like, 5 minutes, then we went and say How to Deal, it was pretty good. went to park for a lil while, then were walking to Target when we saw mom and she picked us up. went back home, but his mom called to pick him up like 10 minutes after we got home. imo the whole thing was awful, very poorly planned, my parents were impatient and crabby, Kyle being a shithead. Now I know why we never have people over, we're so just not used to it, it's really sad. after I walked Brent down my parents interogated and harassed me (even they said it was harassing) in the doorway to my room, first about the bugbites on my face, then about how I had made them all angry and embarassed when Brent's mom called and we kept her waiting, then about how they think I don't watch Kyle enough. as if I wasn't feeling shitty enough, Kyle would not get to sleep, made me just, wanna take the remaining 10 pills from my prescription and never wake up. when I was brushing my teeth, I wanted to like, take the razors sitting on the counter and just, have a go at my wrists. but of course I didn't. I never do. but one of these days...
love ya Brent
Brent came over for like, 5 minutes, then we went and say How to Deal, it was pretty good. went to park for a lil while, then were walking to Target when we saw mom and she picked us up. went back home, but his mom called to pick him up like 10 minutes after we got home. imo the whole thing was awful, very poorly planned, my parents were impatient and crabby, Kyle being a shithead. Now I know why we never have people over, we're so just not used to it, it's really sad. after I walked Brent down my parents interogated and harassed me (even they said it was harassing) in the doorway to my room, first about the bugbites on my face, then about how I had made them all angry and embarassed when Brent's mom called and we kept her waiting, then about how they think I don't watch Kyle enough. as if I wasn't feeling shitty enough, Kyle would not get to sleep, made me just, wanna take the remaining 10 pills from my prescription and never wake up. when I was brushing my teeth, I wanted to like, take the razors sitting on the counter and just, have a go at my wrists. but of course I didn't. I never do. but one of these days...
love ya Brent
# posted by Alyssa : 9:57 AM
